Darling I know you think you can trust me
Well..
I don't even trust me
A year ago I moved to Orange County
But "Bakersfield Habits", yeah they die slowly...
I'm not even tryna make me out to be a "victim"
I know being drunk as fuck's not a good reason
I can seek your pity telling you, "I've got problems"
But me being selfish as fuck's not a real problem
the drugs
the drugs
you know we've got the drugs
the lust
the touch
we'll know just what killed us
And why should I even be with you when I can't be faithful? I mean...
The first week that we started dating, yeah I hung out with Rachel...
Right now you're tryna call me, but I don't feel like picking up
I know you think I'm a "good boy" when I'm on tour, but right now we're sniffing stuff
We claim that we do it for the "music"
But everyday we're out here seeking pleasure
I can seek your pity telling you, "business is rough"
But truthfully I know that I don't deserve your love
I remember being 10 and having dreams of being a "Rockstar"
I remember being 12 and having dreams of being a "Husband"
But these days I have more fun at the party, than the show
These days I have less fun with you, than all of these hoes
supported by 19 fans who also own “Boys in the Van”
this was the first track to resonate with me and it still does. "never really drowning but never really out of the water". says what i can't find the words for. Peace